The Lost Traveller who has found her entourge again...

and for whom silence is the only companion.

Urges

Sometimes I have this sudden urge,
To sit by the window sill
And see the noisy rain,
Darkening the landscape,
Making the red umbrella hurry faster
By the calm, green field.
And then, by some adolescent craze
I feel like letting you know,
About things I have long craved understanding,
And things that I should have said,
On many bygone wintery evenings,
Things that I think, I feel, I love, about you.


Please do appreciate my sincere efforts.

To the roses,


You and your fallen petals
Remind me of all the lives
Blooming, withering, withered or fallen!


Please do appreciate my sincere efforts.

I cry, I always cry, I cry within me, deeply, silently, I cry when I am alone, I cry in those dark corners, I cry on some belief, I cry for some face, I cry to myself, I cry for others, this unknown grief in myself; that I cannot manifest otherwise. I cannot forget your face, that face in the night, red and almost bloated, dark, quiet, maybe crying over the grief and regret of leaving us, her mortal self, or our mother on seeing us crying, orphaned to the world, leaving behind companions of lifetime, my aged grandpa, her companion for 45 years, my grandmom left us. Why is there so much misery in the world? How can anybody live in such a world where there is so much grief? Strong, stoic, nonchalant I find it tough to challenge this world, yet I hide my face, let somebody sees this weak face. Yet I cry, for some inherent grief, my grief, for all this grief that is there in this world and which I find so hard to cope with.


Please do appreciate my sincere efforts.

A Missing Link.


It was a really strange day today! I set off at 8.55, went to the library to print my proposal which at the end of the day turned out to be useless and it was really the thing that turned my day into a mess. I missed my bus, I got lost, I cried, I recovered, I smiled, I ran, I spoke, I was confident, I shopped and I returned home! Yes 8.08am-4pm was the day span for me today and well I did stuff I generally do over the week! Lol! Yeah, life is strange and it’s often surprising to see how just one missed link sets off a whole set of events that turns a visibly bright sunny day into hell. Helvetica, I term it, not because of the word’s meaning but because of the words close pronunciation to hell.


Please do appreciate my sincere efforts.
Why cant I just close my eyes and be at peace with myself? Why do I need to bother about every bloody thing that happens around me? Why do I have to be the only being known to me, suffering from this in communicability?

Please do appreciate my sincere efforts.